Missing!!!

Six years back when I gave you your birthday gift, I didn't realise that it was the last time we were celebrating your birthday. I wish I could just turn back time and be with you once again. Time is supposed to heal all wounds, but I feel that some pains just grow with time. I never realised how difficult it would be to be part of  every joy and sorrow that came after you. When I was happy, I needed you to share it. When I was sad, I needed you to wipe my tears. In every turn of my life, every new chapter that began, I needed you. And now I need you more than ever. I need you to guide me and I need you to care for me. This is the period when I needed you the most and this is the time I am all alone. When there is so much to come and so much is required, I find myself completely helpless. I wish again and again that you were here with me. Part of my joys and part of my pain.

Clouds

Like the overcast sky outside, my heart is also clouded
The season of rains seems never to end
They say this bad weather will pass and there will be sunshine
But I do not know when that will happen
The air is standing still and not a bird flaps its wings
A heaviness seems to have fallen everywhere
Standing alone and praying for the best
Waiting for the traveler's return
But there are some who leave without a goodbye
And go to the land of no return
And those who are left behind with tears
Have to wait for their own turn

Tide

I feel a sense of loss in everything I do. For everything that I have left behind comes to haunt me. I wonder where I am going and when will I find peace but till then it is just restlessness and tears. A sense of fear surrounds me. It seems as if nothing will become right again. I wish I had a shoulder to cry on, a lap to rest my head and pour out my heart. I feel so helpless as if I was trying to hold some sand in my fist. I feel like standing at the shore and watching the sea wash away my footprints. I feel so lonely and even the beauty of my surroundings fails to enthral me. Like a bird who is lost in a storm, I long to find a sense of direction. I long to reach that welcoming door that stood ajar waiting for me. I long to walk down on that familiar path, I long to go back to those who loved me. And yet, I do not know, when and where fate will bring us together again. But I hope that one day we will all be back together, smiling and satisfied with each other.

A stranger in some unknown lands

Sometimes i wonder where life is taking me
A stranger in some unknown lands
With just my memories to take me on
But a heaviness in my heart as well
A part of me wants to hold on to the past
Go back and undo what has been done
But life has no point of return
And i am just a dry leaf in the wind
Unaware of what my destiny holds
I go where i am taken to
I wander in some places unknown
A stranger in some unknown lands

Mumma

They say that time is the greatest healer
But even time fails to heal some pain
And every day I miss you more
And every time I wish you were here
Even time cannot ease the pain
The heartache of losing you
For you are the one whom none can replace
I wish you could come back and tell me all is fine
I wish you could comfort me one more time
I wish you were part of my joys and sorrows
I wish you would hold my hand again

Tangled

It feels so strange, a kind of weird feeling. Leaving behind everything that took us more than three years to build to never set eyes on it again. What took us three years to make, we left in just three days. Carrying with us just our memories, we left behind what was ours. While we did move on, a part of our heart was left behind. Something is amiss, something is broken, something lost for ever. While my heart wants me to go back, i know that i have to just move on.
Life brings with it many changes and change is what needs to be accepted. Things and people and places will change with time and he only thing that remains is our memories.
Something about all this makes me think about death, when one leaves one's everything, every loved one behind and moves to an unknown destination. It made me think that the day leaving our home will cease to be painful will be the day when we will be prepared for our death.

In anticipation

Wondering what the future holds
Hopes and wishes and prayers abound
For a peek into the life yet to come
For where the events are going to turn
Some dreams hold the secret
Some prayers give the comfort
Wishing it becomes as beautiful as a dream
Floating lightly in a lively stream
A dream I dream and a dream you have
Of what the life is going to share
For every prayer has an answer
And every dream has a believer
For future is a page unturned
Waiting for its time to come